All fresh !

Hola mimios !! This may be the very first time that I am actually writing a post when i am not in a very bad mood. Why am i in such a good mood well that is something that i will tell you later .

For starters i will explain the time period . Its almost the end of july and i'm just done with my terminal exams. Those exams were a bunch of tough cookies. One managed to crumble too . Sad . But I will strive towards baking a full batch . I've got lots of things to do for tomorrow , my god . And I'm here writing this .

You know how I keep telling things about loosing friends and apparent love and all . The thing is , it's right and wrong . The worlds actually listens to you . Whatever it is that you want , will it , try for it and it will happen . Would you want to sit crying over a lost friend or try to regain that  friend . Or even make 4 more in his or her place , still beats wallowing over it . It's as you want it to be . No one's gonna make way for you . You gota make you'r own way . I guess the one who makes the effort gets it . Another way of thinking . Once you let go , what's the point in anything . Another thing I've learnt a few days ago is that who ever u have a quarrel or some kinda problem with . NEVER avoid them . Never stop talking to them . Shove you'r effing ego . Silence never fixes anything . Ever . Don't be crying i lost him or her later . I actually got that from an expert . Or so he says .

Remember , I'm saying all this because I am in a good mood . So , if I say the opposite in another post , the jokes on you . That's that . I went out with the yolos . Great day . Amazing . Wow . Hope I remember it , which I really can't . Don't know why ! Does that have anything to do with my good mood ? Yeah it probably does .
It's 2 in the morning and I've still got work to do.  Until next time folks.. Ciao

Confusing terms .. hate and dislike

What do you think it means to hate someone ? Or dislike someone . Or secretly adore that someone .
I dont know I'm afraid.
How can someone mean so many things to me at the same time. A good friendship that's gone down never comes back as pure as it used to be. That's the truth. I guess there's no point in hating soneone because it just didn't work out . And then beating yourself up over it.
As someone told me , don't think about what can happen or can't . It's not complicated . You're just making it so .
Decide , is that person important to you or not . It's not an easy decision . And you'll probably make the wrong one .
But hopefully you'll make the right one and act on it . As I just recently decided , no . I think im gonna make it work this time . I can't long on to stupid connections . I curse myself for actually calling it stupid knowing how good it was when it lasted .
But move on I shall .

True meanings

Greetings ,
Well, it's been a while. And I'm really bored so i thought I'd write again. Im in my twelveth grade. I realize my writing has gottwn really boring.  It sucks. I can't exactly fake creativity . But , I shall try my best . It reallh depends on my mood . And I usually write when I'm in a bad mood . So you can understand why my writing is boring . Yeah , I suppose I'm at a crossroad in my life . But, honestly,  my path is pretty straight. Untill this year is over atleast . Because all I have to do now is study.  Priority no. 1 . That would have done any good if I actually treated that as priority no. 1 . I really lack focus and  determination . That sucks too . Oh yeah , I've got exams coming up on monday.  That's it for my life right now. 

You know what , I'm gonna make this a daily thing . This time for sure .
I've gained freinds , lost friends . But I guess that's the circle . A sad yet hopefull circle . But as a friend told me the previous day , the friends who really want to stay , stay . Otherwise they never really were your friends to begin with . Won't do any good by beating yourself up over it . So move on man . Atlest that's what I think right now. Who knows what I'll think tomorrow . Im so changeable. And that sucks too . Yeah I'm saying all this because I think I've lost another close friend . I first started being frustrated about it but then , even if it's happening exactly like "last" time , why should I get hurt . Besides ,  I'll live . So that's it for today , let me go study . ;-)

De Ja Vu

I don't even know how much time has passed since my last post and im not gonna check coz thats not gonna make a difference anyway . Yeah, you can tell from my tone that i'm pissed . Well , not that pissed but in a really bad mood . I'm done with my 11th grade . Can you imagine that? I'm finally a twelveth grader ! I barely made it through though . What happened to me ? I mean, i used to a top scorer and all . Maybe it was coz i was too naive then ? Nah . My low grades have been bringing me very bad consequences . I don't even have my speakers anymore . But thats not what i want to write about today . Before that , i'll just finish summing up . My one month vacation has started and it's no fun . Actually , i suppose it's been exactly about 1 year since i started this blog . Yay ! Confetti ! So , coming to the main topic . It's happened again . How do i manage to loose friends again ? Yeah , just like my best friend last year or my best friend before that or like all my best friends who are strangers now , i've made another best friend into a stranger . This really makes me cry now . I absolutely hate it . Last year , i might have grown a tiny crush for that particular friend so thereby screwed up the friendship , but the loss of that friendship hurt me terribly . Took me a long time to move on . And what helped that was the gain of new friends . Yeah , still have all those friends , though the people who got the closest to me were repelled away . But then , they'r only away physically , emotionally they'r still my best friends . But this one particular friend that i grew the most close to managed to break loose . I really liked her and really do miss the days where we'd talk freely . The stranger like behavior just pains me so so so much . I mean , ive got some kinda curse . Another friendship lost . But im kinda getting used to that now . I'll live . Till next time . Ciao