True meanings

Greetings ,
Well, it's been a while. And I'm really bored so i thought I'd write again. Im in my twelveth grade. I realize my writing has gottwn really boring.  It sucks. I can't exactly fake creativity . But , I shall try my best . It reallh depends on my mood . And I usually write when I'm in a bad mood . So you can understand why my writing is boring . Yeah , I suppose I'm at a crossroad in my life . But, honestly,  my path is pretty straight. Untill this year is over atleast . Because all I have to do now is study.  Priority no. 1 . That would have done any good if I actually treated that as priority no. 1 . I really lack focus and  determination . That sucks too . Oh yeah , I've got exams coming up on monday.  That's it for my life right now. 

You know what , I'm gonna make this a daily thing . This time for sure .
I've gained freinds , lost friends . But I guess that's the circle . A sad yet hopefull circle . But as a friend told me the previous day , the friends who really want to stay , stay . Otherwise they never really were your friends to begin with . Won't do any good by beating yourself up over it . So move on man . Atlest that's what I think right now. Who knows what I'll think tomorrow . Im so changeable. And that sucks too . Yeah I'm saying all this because I think I've lost another close friend . I first started being frustrated about it but then , even if it's happening exactly like "last" time , why should I get hurt . Besides ,  I'll live . So that's it for today , let me go study . ;-)